I swam to the end of the dock?
Worked my way up, life jacket-less,
despite my crippling fear of water.
Went out every day with
someone to watch from the pier.
Swam a few more feet each time
until I reached open water-
a place where I could no longer
touch bottom, and the dock ended
so no one dry could grab me
if I slipped under.
I waded there a moment or two
in suspended animation
a fantastic combination of
buoyancy and bravery.
Do you remember?
But this is not that summer
and the moxy I worked up
is gone I discover as I jump
in from the end of the dock
skipping all the shallow parts
near shore, the slow start that
gave me courage before
and here I am screaming,
flailing, struggling hard
no reachable sand beneath me
and in their panic
drowning people often
pull rescuers down with them.